WTF?

Okay what is it with people and their moods? I am exhausted trying to keep up with the shifting moods of those around me, and my own kaleidescope of emotion. One moment I'm up, the next I'm down, usually influenced by a shift of someone close to me. Mainly, I'm bewildered, unsure, and I don't like THAT feeling at all. I am on a rollercoaster, and although I usually love them, of late I feel rather like throwing up.

I know what I know, although I may not be able to express how I know it. However I am wrestling with what I do NOT know, and how uneasy I feel when the rules change without me. My head hurts, and my heart hurts worse. I try valiantly to understand why people do the things they do, and to respect their decisions.

However that doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt, it does.